I joined Share Oct of 2006 and its been a little over 7 years. I could have never imagined that I would be here 7 years later. I'm sitting here watching my Dh and my two boys play. Jaxson think he is so grown and want to be just like his big bro and his daddy. Sometime these are the moment my heart skips a beat, what would it be like if there was a little girl in the mix. When we were driving to church last week I looked back as the boys were giggling in the back seat, and all I could notice was the empty space on the other side of the car seat. Im not sure those feeling of moments will ever fade away. I joined share trying to find someone to tell my the feelings I was having were normal. That the grief would fade, or less, however you want to say it. And through the years the pain doesn't feel as deep and the grief does not consume me. Yes there are days when the waves hit but I feel like I am able to come out of those waves easier, like someone has thrown my a life preserver.
Its still unbelievable to me that 7 years have passed. Its seems like 7 years went by in the blink of an eye and can just imagine the next 7 years flying by, Where will I be at in 14 years?
Jaxson's dedication is Sunday, Prematurity Awareness day, as well as my birthday!
I wanted to share this video of Jaxson Fishing Derek to him to the bait bucket and he loved it and this is sooooo funny! and even if you do not have a fb you should be able to view it here
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10151801300585369&l=219361058868871077
Sam, I think that there will always be those moments where life without our child just takes our breath away. That moment where for an instant you just imagine the coulda woulda shoulda. It is really hard to imagine our girls as big girls now. In some ways it feels like just yesterday that I was pregnant. Someday we will be reunited again. Sending you and the boys lots of extra hugs.
The video is hilarious!!! I had my hand over my mouth because I thought he was going to eat it. Maybe it was a donut fish. Lol.
Jami
Aaaah, those empty spaces. I find my eyes wander to them as well, and I think always will with a big sigh. The Share Community, myself included, is so lucky to have you. I know you understand we would gladly kick ya out if it meant your sweet Trinity could be in your arms and the boys born on time... You honor each of their stories by all the many amazing ways you give to this community. I'm so thankful... grateful... humbled to call you a friend.
Oh and the video... LMAO!