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Samarella's Journal

A whole lot going on

So my laptop took a crap and I lost all my pictures. I have been MIA for over a week because of it, its just to hard to post on my phone. ANYWAYS I got a new laptop today and I am loving it I am even able to SKYPE, well once I figure out how to use it LOL Alright not back on to why I wanted to blog, I attended the kick off luncheon for M4B as the ambassador family and was asked to get up and share my story. I was super nervous and Didnt want to cry and guess what, I cried through the whole speech and there was not a dry eye in the house, I felt like I had failed by crying through the whole speech. Then one of the main sponcers for our Area (Bright House Networks) came up to me and told me not to worry about getting upset because my story is inspirational and its stories like mine that makes people wake up and see why this cause is so important. Then the District guy and local store manager for KMART (who is another big sponcer) asked me to come and speak at their celebrity auction in a few weeks. They are big into racing at this KMART and they are doing an auction with like 12 race car drivers signing autographs and auctioning off car part signed by the drivers and they want me to speak. (and I might even Get to see Katie H. that night since they will be in town for the big race) As soon as I get a picture of this years M4B envelopes Ill post a picture cant believe our family it on it! CRAZY. Also the center pieces were sooo cute as soon as I can get them up I will. The next few months are going to be busy with the renovations to the house, moving, busy season at work, as well as M4B, I will be one busy woman, on top of all that the whole ttc thing. As for the TTC thing Im going to try for a few more months and then Im done I cant continue to live my life based on my cycle. I told Derek 3 more months and then Im done it took 5 years ttc after Trinity to get pregnant this last time and I cant do this. I hate the emotional rollercoaster it puts me on, I have spending the money of ovulation kits and hpt test. I hate spending so much money on something I pee on and it just breaks my heart... So anyways the next few months will be crazy!

  • You are gonna be such a rockin' Ambassador Family!  Look at you and your kiddos already making waves!!  So awesome.

    And I totally had to laugh at paying so much for things you pee on!  I never thought about it that way!  You're so right!  I hope you have to pee on very few to get your BFP!  And for what its worth, you can get super cheap ones online.  :)

    Hugs momma.  You've been on my mind.

    Lauren

  • I'm gonna ditto everything Lauren said. Your gonna rock your ambassadorship. I'm sad to see mine go a little. Happy in one way cause its super time consuming but gonna miss it as well. We had an awesome year. So theraputic in a way to tell your story so much. Your gonna be incredible. Best of luck...and dont be afraid to cry. I was so scared my first few trying so hard ot to cry but then realized my speeches became stuffy cause I wasnt putting my heart into them. Once I allowed myselft to be real and if I cry I cry, I got amazing responses.

    Wishing that preggo test to have a positive result real soon. So depressing looking at a negative one. PS my cousin always bought hers at a dollar store...she swears they worked. Cant hurt.

    xoxo

    Jessica

  • I'm with both Lauren and Jessica, you're going to be an amazing ambassador family.  Crying during your speech only shows how passionate you are for this cause.  

    I'm sending you positive thoughts for the next few months.  I pray you get that positive and that it sticks for a nice, long nine months.  

    Much love to you!

    Tommie

  • I think it's so awesome that you are the Ambassador Family for your area.  I can see why you'd be nervous about crying through your speech, but I think that your true/raw emotions that you show are what really touch people - and it showed in their response to you!

    Good luck with everything over the next couple of months.  I'm sending baby dust your way :)

    Love,

    Libby

  • Congrats on being the Ambassador Family in your area!  Really cool!  You did GREAT!  It's hard not to get choked up.  These are our babies, our lives, and they mean the world to us.  It's important for people to see the pain when it doesn't go right.  It's nothing I'd ever wish on anyone.  Instead of just reading numbers and statistics, your speech put a face with the mission of MOD.  

    The next speaking engagement with Kmart sounds exciting! You can do it!!!  Go Sam go!  Good luck with all of the house stuff and happy craziness of M4B.  You go girl!

    Lindsay

  • Oh yeah, you will see me!!!!!

    Katie

  • Hang in there girl! TTC sure isn't as fun as all my friends seem to think it is. I think it's awesome that you get to be an ambassador family in FL!! You're story is going to help so many babies in the future through all you touch.  I'm so proud of you!!!

    (((hugs)))

    Julie

  • You are awesome, and I'm sure your story is touching people in ways you can't even imagine. Keep up the good work for all of us, even when it's overwhelming! It's awesome that you're getting the little perks that come with being an ambassador, too.

    Keep "doing it"! Fingers crossed.

    Shannon