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All Iwant for Christmas

So my husband keeps asking me what I want for Christmas... HUMMM.. I want to be celibrating this holiday tucking two lil ones into bed Christmas Eve instead of one... I want to be filling two stockings! I want to be enjoying my holiday instead of feeling as though someone is missing. I want each of you that Have sick children to have well ones.. And no hospital visits this Holiday season. I want each of you who Have lost babies to have them back. I want you to be able to enjoy this Holiday without feeling as though something is missing. I dont want any of you to hurt! I want Yolonda to Have her Grace back in her arms so she doesnt hurt anymore. I hate seeing her in pain! I want Chantelle to have her lil man back instead of making a lil Christmas tree for him and here sister memory, She also had a sister that passed away due to coming too soon! I want relief for all of you! I started on my meds and although they are working great. But deep down I still miss her. I added a butterfly to my tree tin her memory this year and I want everyone who has supported me the last few months to know I AM OKAY, I am doing better. I have been able to get out of bed with a smile on my face, I am trying my hardest to enjoy HOLLAND, however the Holidays in Holland have proved to be a lil more difficult then I had ever imagined! All I want for Christmas... Easier said than done huh!

  • What a beautiful blog.  I'm glad you are feeling better but know that these weeks are tough on you and so many other Share-ites.

    Love to you!

    Julie

  • All seem like quite reasonable requests to me!  Get workin' Santa!!

    I share your deep sadness.  No matter how good the surface gets a part of me knows it's always going to be there.  How could it not?  Perhaps it can serve good.  Instead of bringing us down with it, it can be that little reminder to appreciate each moment and each day that much more.

    My thoughts are with you,

    Lauren

  • dear samantha...your post brought tears!...this year that has been the easiest question to answer...All i want for christmas is my lil angel back in my arms!..i too wish all us mums of angels could have that as our gift this year....i know that is all any of us want...thankyou for mentioning me and my angels in your post....(my baby sister died due to a hole in her heart)...you are amazing xxx hugs xxx

  • Christmas wishes are not like they use to be are they??  Holland is a unique place to be isn't it?

    Merry Christmas to you!

    Tracy

  • What a beautiful blog Samantha!  I am glad you are feeling better!  You are just too sweet for words.  I swear you and Page would melt in the rain!  Thank you so much for checking on me.  You dont know what that meant to me.  

    Love you to pieces!

    Yolonda