When I joined Share shortly after losing Trinity I was looking for people who "got it" I was in a very dark place. I was in a hole I could't get out of. SHARE was a guiding light for me and in the beginning exactly what I needed to help climb out. I was offered a light and a rope from so many of our veteran members. When your world feels like it was ending and you don't know how you are going to make it through the hard days. It was comforting to know that I had a place to come. I was given hope. I was told I would make it! I live, breathed, loved SHARE.
As I gained my footing I was determined to give back. To be that voice to someone on the other end of the computer when they too were as lost as I was. I knew so many members, their stories, their children and had come to love them all! I have watched many of the children grow up through the many blogs. I have cried through blog, felt joyful when milestones were reached, and felt all the emotions written in the community.
SHARE UNION I was given the opportunity to put a face behind the words typed on the screen. I love offering the hugs behind the virtual ones given online. I gained so much from the workshops and left there ready to take on the world for our March For Babies walks. This past year we did a work shop about OWNING our stories. This was big for me. I don't think I ever truly took ownership of MY story and how/who/when to share it. I'm not a bad mom if someone asks me how many kids I have and I say 2. The guilt doesn't have to be there anymore. I know I have three babies. I know I love all three of my kids, and the simple question that used to hurt my heart doesn't have to. I choose who I Share my story with, if at the time I can't handle the conversation that follows IF I say 3 than that doesn't make her life any less important. If I do say 3 because I am in a good place and can share Trinity's story then I do, and I do it with pride. But I do not have to hold on to the guilt that, that question and many others like it can bring.
I have had the blessed the past few years, I got to Lobby with Congress, To walk those halls advocating for the health of babies so that no parent ever has to walk our shoe's. I got the chance to do a News segment for Fox, and help run our walk for the past few years and stepped up this year even more to help (even though we got rained out) when our Community Director was called away due to a death in the Family.
Through the years I have written articles and have been the ambassador Family multiple times. I have had the honored of share our story at kickoff's for the March for Babies Walk season as well as local businesses kickoffs. Thanking and including SHARE and MOD all along the way.
The last almost 8 years has been quite the roller-coaster, I have had good days and bad. Many of you have seen me cry, laughed with me, and been my biggest support through this journey. My hope when I gained my footing was that I wanted to give back and make a difference in one hurting heart. Like so many had done for me.
Some times I go back to those early post and just read them, never imagining then where I would be today. As Trinity's 8th Heavenly birthday fast approaches I often look back over the years and realize SHARE has become a big part of her memory. I'm not sure where I would be if I hadn't had a place to turn. I am Thankful to each member of this site who has been there. Encouraged me, loved me and loved ALL THREE OF MY KIDDOS!
It was so great meeting you last year. It makes my heart happy to see how Share has helped you and that you have been able to use the MOD has a way to honor and remember your baby. Hugs to you.
Samantha- What a beautiful post full of love for all your beautiful kiddos! xoxo-Lauren
There is so much strength and beauty in this post. Your love for your daughter AND your sons is so very evident in every word you say and write. I am so glad you've come to a point where you love for Trinity isn't tinged with guilt of any sort. She deserves that and so do you.
Much love to you,
I can't believe it's been almost 8 years!!!! I'm glad that you found Share when you needed it most and continued to share your support with others when the navigating got a tiny bit easier for you. I can't believe how big the boys are getting and more and more handsome each time I see them!!
I wish that Arianna and Trinity were alive more times in a day that I can count on one hand. I wish neither one of us knew the pain that comes with losing a child. I wish Share didn't need to exist but it does and I am truly happy that you and I found it. I can't imagine walking this journey by myself without the people who understand the guilt and the pain. I can't imagine it without you. From the bottom of my heart thank you for everything that you have done, you are an incredible person and I am blessed to call you my friend. Because of you one day my girls have a chance at full term healthy pregnancies and will hopefully bring their babies home from the hospital. Don't ever stop being you because you are wonderful.
I'll be thinking about you and your angel as her angelversary approaches. I am sorry for the reasons that brought us all to the site, but I am so grateful to have it and met so many wonderful moms. Cute pic of your boys!
Sending love to all of your kiddos Sam,
Hugs to you Samantha as Trinity's birthday approaches. I am so glad you here on Share and you have most definitely given back to so many of us. Your boys are adorable!
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