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Samarella's Journal

Days go on

(i know 3 blogs in 2 days so glad to be back on SHARE) Over the past few week my DH and I have been talking more about our daughter and how hard it still is on me that she is not with me. I told my DH how I really felt, feeling that I have only shared on here or on the phone to some of my SHARE family. I told him that I feel as though I let him, Trinity, and myself down when she passed. I guess I feel that the women body if designed to give birth. I feel that My body has failed.. and as we start to really try again (after 4 1/2 years) Im scared to death that something may go wrong, or my body may fail me, him, and our unborn child again. I just wish there was a guarentee like god saying "I would never put you through that again" and I know there is no possible way to know the outcome! I took my ovulation strip today and its bright pink (i know TMI) but Im excited that finally we are on this road, praying that there are far less bumps and pot holes in the way. Thanks to all those who are always here for me I love you ladies sooo much! I wish you all lived closer and I could hug you all! Lots of Love, Samantha

  • Sending lots of baby dust your way!

    Katie

  • Trusting through the unknowns is the toughest part for me.  I know that God is holding me through it all, but remembering that is sometimes tricky.

    Hugs to you!

    Tracy

  • Girl- you're right! We ARE in the same boat!! I hope everything works out awesome for you and your hubby.  It sure can be a stressful thing.  I've never used those ovulation prediction kits, but usually the timing matches up great anyways.  I don't think that's the problem on my end.  

    It really is frustrating.  I completely understand your feelings about failure.  I really related to it and almost thought I was reading something straight from my own mind!  Keep your chin up- and try not to stress too much :) Love you girlie!!!

    *Baby***Dust****Coming***Your****Way!!****

    (((Hugs))) ~ Julie

  • I was just thinking about you, wondering if you'd try again... wishing you lots of luck TTC and with carrying to term. I know your fears, but without hope, all we have is that fear and our losses. Hoping for the best!

    Shannon