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Samarella's Journal

EDD

Today SHOULD HAE BEEN a day of celibrating my daughters birth. Instead it is a reminder of What should have been. My sweet girl was due 6 years ago today! How did we get here? How did I become part of this awful statistic. Why did my body fail me in ALL of my pregnancies. I try so hard not to do the WHY ME's but today I feel it deep to my core. I know Im blessed! but dang it I want to be blessed with all my babies, I want all those here who have days like this to be hunging their babies instead of morning them. I love SHARE probably more than I could ever type, or even explain into words. I love everyone here and all those I have meet on this journey. I love all the behind the scenes people Judy, James, Scott, Liza! But I HATE what brought me here. I hate I have days that hit me like a ton of brick. I feel guilty when I feel this way! I dont even know if any of this makes sense but when do I ever! Think Im gonna go crawl up in bed and go to sleep!

  • Why do you feel guilty? Your feelings are your feelings and thats ok. I cannot imagine the pain in your heart losing your lil girl and having another baby could no way replace that loss. Big hugs sweetie...wish I could give you one in person.

    I'm with you on loving share...while I was preggo I needed to take a break from it because I wanted to try an erase from my mind all the sadness I know can come from pregnancy...it didnt work...just missed all of you terribly.

    xoxo

    Jessica

  • Sending you huge hugs my friend. Please don't feel guilty, you have no reason to. Love and miss you.

    Laura

  • Hugs Sam.  I know these EDDs are very difficult as well.  I'm thinking about you and wishing you some peace and good zzz's.

    Lindsay

  • Hugs to you girlie!!!  Thinking of you on such a tough day!

    T

  • 3  Love you, Sam!

    Big Hugs,

    Page

  • We all hate what brought us here.  I know I do...  Hug to you & I'll ask for one in return!

    Natalie