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Four years ago at this moment I was 32 weeks pregnant waiting to be seen at the Hospital.  I knew something wasn't right.  I knew something was wrong.  My mother-in-law encouraged me to follow my gut instinct and head in to be checked out.  "Nobody will get any sleep if you don't go, I'll go with you"  We waited forever for L&D to come get me from down stairs.  I got to my room at 9:59 after waiting almost an hour on L&D.  They hooked me up to monitors and the nurse was very understanding.  "we lost our last child" I told her, "I'm a little nervous and something doesn't feel right".  She reassured me that they would figure everything out and make sure that Jaxson was okay.  She hooked me up to monitors and walked out of the room.  Within a few minutes I noticed Jaxson Heart rate was not right.  She came in and had me turn to the side and said because of the Heart rate we would be staying the night.  My Mother in law was going to lease to grab me a few things.  Then his heart rate dropped low.  Then everything happened so fast as they came in to prep me for and emergency c-section.  "We have to deliver now"    My mother in law jumped on the phone to call my husband and I called my mom.  I remember texting a few friends a text "they are taking him now".   Within 15 minutes I was being wheeled down the hall.  I was put under and he was born at 10:58.  59 minute from the time I got to the L&d floor.  When I came to I was wheeled into the NICU to see my 4lb 1oz rainbow.  I couldn't believe he was here.  I couldn't believe we were in a NICU again.  

This little sunshine came into our lives when our family needed it the most.  We had recently lost DH father and our family was struggling to recover.   Jaxson brought us together again and lifted the sadness.  And I do believe my FIL sent this special boy to us.  

Tonight my little 4lb 1oz rainbow walked onto the T-ball field.  Tonight he played on the field that was named after his grandpa.   Tonight he had two good hits (they only play two innings) and was given the game ball.   Looking at him tonight a was teary.  I cant believe he is four years old.  I cant believe this baby we have prayed so desperately for is no longer a baby.  His smile is infectious and the laughter can heal your heart.  His sweet disposition will make your day.  He is silly, smart, and very intuitive.  He asks some of the most off the wall question and I have to look up the answers.  He love Peppa Pig and playing t-ball.  He thinks his brother hangs the moon but will also be the first one to tell on him.  He cries when his feeling are hurt and when falls or get hurt he immediately yells "I'm fine" or "I'm Okay"  (and if he is hurt he follows those words with tears).  His Daddy is his hero.  And he will tell you he is my muffin but not my baby anymore.  He is currently snuggled up with his daddy in bed, and although they should be sleeping I can hear to two of them giggling and it melts my heart.   

Happy 4th Birthday to my sweet Rainbow Baby!