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Samarella's Journal

LONG FEW DAYS!

So where do I beging... First: let me say thank god that SHARE is back up and running!! I miss my comfort zone soo much second: my nephew is still in the NICU. My SIL and BIL are adopting this sweet little man! And I am soo blessed to be his aunt. HOWEVER, his bio mom is a POS! Sat morning he tested positive for CRACK!!! for real how can someone do this to their baby! My SIL and BIL are heart broken but now that the bio mom has signed her rights over she can NEVER hurt him again and Nathan will have more of a chance to have a life now! Just praying he comes out of this without major complications. Although he was 8 weeks early he is and has been breathing on his own! his white blood count is off and we aren't sure exactly why yet??? but we are holding out hope that he comes out of this on top! Third: I got my AF not only did I get it but I got it 5 days early... ugh! so my cycle goes like this 15 days till I ovulated and an 8 day luteal phase! my total cycle was 23 days long! WTF! I mean why in the hell is it so hard for me to get pregnant! how come this just cant be easy! how come this cant go as I planned! They say god only gives me what he thinks you can handle! WHAT did I do to make him think I can handle all these cards he has handed me I truely believe that he has me mixed up with someone else!!!

  • Samantha,

    I am so glad that Nathan is holding his own but am so very, very sad that not only does he have to battle prematurity but also crack addiction.  Wow.  So glad he has your family on his side.

    I'm so sorry that your cycle is so messed up.  It's so unfair.

    I'm thinking of you and hoping for good things to start happening for you and yours.

    Tommie

  • I'm glad to hear that your BIL and SIL are adopting a baby and that the bio mom has signed over rights.  I know it is probably scary to know that he was born addicted to crack, but I wanted to tell you that my mom watches a little girl who was also born addicted and she is doing great.  She's almost a year old and shows no signs of her mother's abuse.  

    I'm sorry AF came so early.  I don't understand sometimes why God thinks we can handle so much.  Hopefully things will lighten up soon- although I know so of the weight will never go away.  I'll be keeping you in my thoughts..  Hang in there!!

                           ~Julie

  • I'm so glad that Nathan is doing well even though his bio mom made terrible decisions!  I know that your SIL & BIL will be great for him and will show him the great choices in life.

    I'm sorry to hear that "AF" is early.  I'll keep praying for things to settle down for your body and everything to "come together".

    Tracy

  • i am with you...thank god share is back up and running.  i wasn't sure why it wasn't working, and started thinking it was gone for good...almost had a panic attack, not sure what i would do without it (meaning all you).

    i am so happy for your SIL and BIL, and their new baby.  i'll be praying for nathan!

    as far as your AF....i feel so betrayed by my body too.  it's just not fair.  my cycles have been crazy, ranging from 26-36 days...how are you supposed to plan for a baby with those numbers?

    i'll keep my fingers crossed for you and send positive baby thoughts your way!

    jennifer

  • I'm glad that she signed over her rights, some people just shouldn't be allowed to have babies!  Though I am glad that this mom had a baby so that your SIL could adopt him, but man I would like to slap her upside the head right now!  Is his white count up or down?

    Stupid stupid AF, she needs to go away and let all of us TTCers alone for about 9 months!  Crazy cycle!  Hugs to you!

    STacy