Samarella's Journal


  • I'm so sorry....I have days like that too.  I'm thinking of you!


  • Hey Samantha,

    Me too!  I am just so fragile right now.  I'm trying to keep a brave face, but I am just hurting and to think that I am going to spend the rest of my life with this pain.  I am told it will not always be this intense, but it doesnt matter how much the pain lessen, it will never ever completely go away. Get this, although I would never, ever hurt myself, the other day I was thinking, although there are loads of people who love me, if Lord forbid Dwayne dies tomorrow, I would have no reason to stay here to live with that pain while my little family is in heaven.  I think I would literally die of a broken heart at that point.  Geeze, I just hijacked your blog, I should have just called you :-).

    I am so sorry its one of those days.  I truly am.

    See you in a couple of weeks!


  • girl i love u...I've been lost before too but than somehow i found myself...i know your going through hell right now and i know what is happening or what has happen is different than what i went through but im here for u girl just like u are there for me. Your day will come girl where things will be ok and u will figure it out one day it will all make since...i just hope that day is soon u dont deserve feeling lost...u have such a big heart girl keep your head high. i love ya!!!