MARCH OF DIMES | MARCH FOR BABIES | NACERSANO

Samarella's Journal

NEED A PICK ME UP!

USUALLY WHEN I COME TO THE 18TH OF A MONTH, IM SAD FOR THE DAY AND I MANAGE TO PICK MYSELF BACK UP. YET ON FEB 18TH IS WAS 6 MONTHS AND I CAN NOT MANAGE TO PICK MYSELF BACK UP. I FEEL AS THO IM BACK TO WHEN IT HAPPENED AND I CAN HANDLE IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I RELIVE THE WHOLE ORDEAL AND MISS MY ANGEL SO MUCH. SOMETIME ALL I DO IS CRY, IM BACK TO HAVING TROUBLE SLEEPING AGAIN, HAVING TROUBLE WITH MY EMOTIONS, GETTNG ANGERY OF THE SMALLEST THINGS. IM SURE MY HUSBAND IS JUST READY TO THROW IN THE TOWEL. I KNOW THAT ON THE 6TH OF MARCH IS THE DAY OUR DAUGHTER WAS CONCIEVED. YOU HEAR ABOUT FETAL/INFANT LOSS, I REMEMBER AS A KID FUNDRAISING FOR THE MARCH OF DIMES. NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS DID I THINK THAT I WOULD BE ONE OF THER PEOPLE WE WERE RAISING MONEY FOR. I MISS MY ANGEL SO MUCH, I JUST WOULD LOVE TO HAVE FIVE MORE MINUTES WITH HER.

  • The loss of a child is never something youget over, instead I think you try to get through it.

    Last fall Denise told me it would get easier with time........three years after losing two of our boys, I thought she was nuts.

    But now, four years past it.....things are better and brighter.

    My thoughts are with you.

    -Shonda

  • I am so sorry you are going through another rough patch right now.

    It is very understandable since you are approaching the date of Trinity's conception.  I wish you strength to get through this difficult time.

    Karen