Wow I don't know how many times I have tried to write this today. For once I am at a loss for words over my kids. So much has changed in the last year. At this moment a year ago, I was waiting in the ER at the hospital for L&D to come and get me. I knew in my gut something wasn't right. The on-call doctor had brushed me off and thanks to the encouragement of my Mother-in-law to follow my gut we were at the hospital to get my little guy checked out. I didn't get into my room until 9:58. By 10:59 Jaxson was delivered by emergency C-section 8 weeks early. I was scared. I was terrified to walk down the path we had with our daughter 7 years earlier. I couldn't lose another child. When I finally got to see him, he was tiny, I was even more scared!
This past year has been filled with so many emotions. Good, bad, and some I don't even quite know which category to put them in. Have a child after a loss is not a "fix". Many moment are bittersweet and your fight to keep the bitter moment from taking over the sweet moments. (I hope that people "get it")
Jaxson is an amazing little boy. He has such a strong personality!!!! He is a Grandma's boy! My FIL passed away about a year before we found we were expecting. From the moment I found out we were having a boy I felt my FIL had something to do with it. When we went to announce that we were having a boy to the family the only cupcakes they had were baseball ones. My FIL taught the children of our community the love and joy of the sport! The connection Jaxson has with my MIL just is so hard to put into words. I almost feel like he was sent to us to help us all heal a little.
Jaxson is very busy and I can only imagine how they next year is going to go... I have a feeling I will be saying "no" "stop" leave it alone" LOL!
Watching Jaxson and Jadon interact has been amazing. Jadon is a great big brother and loves him so much. I know this last year has passed to quickly, And I know the next year will too.
OHH and today I got a call from the MOD local chapter and she want to put together a group of mom and want me to help head it. Not sure what it all entails but any way to be more involved I'm all for it! We will be getting together after I get back from DC! I'm really Excited!!!
Below are a few more pics from today!
what a cutie! happy first birthday jaxson!
One already?????!!!!!!! I can't believe how fast time flies the older I get..... Love the cutie pie pics! He's so adorable.
I can't believe that he is a year old already! He is so stinking cute I just want to smoosh he smooshy face. :) Give him lots and lots of birthday kisses for me.
Happy 1st Birthday, Jaxson!!
Such a little cutie - love this pictures :) I know it goes by too fast!
See you next week!
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