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Samarella's Journal

really? this has to be so difficult? cant a catch a break?

So as many of you know my husband and I are TTC our 3rd! After four years since my daughter passed away we are finally really trying, temp, prenatal, counting day! I NEVER imagined that it would be this difficult! I always though the fight would begin the moment I found out I was preggo, the morning sickness (ALL DAY) the specialist and praying I make it to term this time!!! Im not ovulating normally and my cycle has been way to short for implantation!!! A friend of mine is due to deliever her 3 happy health baby today! I just want one of those... I just want one normal, happy health pregnance... I want to have that moment when the babies born and hold my baby in my arms ALIVE!!! I dont want him/her wisked away to the NICU like Jadon, and dont want to be holding a lifeless body in my arms 15 weeks to soon!! SORRY FOR THE VENTING BUT I AM GOING NUTS!!!