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On Sunday I was having a "bad" day... I missed my angel soo much and then I got an email about share union and it was perfect timing like my angel was telling me I needed to do this... so now I sit here with my itenerary in hand for the Share Union Im super excited yet scared. scared to death! I know it sound silly but I have never had to face this head on... just online! I miss my daughter, her third birthday just passed and I cant believe I have made it this long. ( I still dont understand how im still standing) Im also thinking of my best friend Cara who lost her beautiful daughter Isabella back on March 16th. Im trying to talk her into going, but after losing Isabella and a few other downfall she has now been left as a single mother to two amazing girls as well as her angel Isabella. I have been trying to talk her into going for two reasons, one may be a little selfish! One I truely believe this would be helpful to her, I have been trying to get her to use the SHARE support system for months now and shes just now opening up as many of you may know from her blogs. And the second is because IM SCARED TO DEATH, and she makes everything seem a little easier! (like I said I know its silly, and I know is sounds selfish :frown: ) She was my rock when I lost my daughter, and I dont know how she dealt with me and then 2 1/2 years later she has to face it herself head on! I know its selfish and Im trying to take the easy way out but I truely believe that we would both benifit from it! We dont have support groups where we are from, and its kinda hard to talk about with anyone whose never been in our shoes as many of you know! I have decided that no matter what Im gonna go, and with me I bring the memory of my daughter Trinity and her daughter Isabella! (and I know if I dont go YOLONDA may come after me LOL) I believe that God has brought me to this website and to you wonderful people for a reason and that he has allowed all the pieces to the puzzel to fall into place for me this year with SHARE UNION! My life may never been what is was before the loss of my beautiful angel but I would never go back... id rather have had her in my life for the short time than to not have know her at all. Although I only carried her for a few months she taught me so much. She taught me how to be STRONG! and I am a strong person, she taught me that bad things dont always happen to bad people and that God has a plan for each of us. We may not understand his plan but he does. I learned that live is not promised, we have a appreciate what we have because in a second it could be gone. So tell the people you love that you love them, dont hold onto grudges and laugh till you cry... and when you cry, cry untill you laugh... I know this may be a rambling mess but Im a little overwhelmed right now with everything in my life! THanks for always being there when I need you all!