Often times I feel like I am a square peg trying to fit in a circle to small! I'm trying to find out where I fit in so many different aspects of my life and I am not quite sure anymore. I have come so far since I first joined SHARE and this week has been tough. Usually Trinity's due date does phase me but this year it falls on Thanksgiving. I have tried to talk to a few people in my real world and not getting much response or felt it was down played. The constant reminder of 11/28 this year has been over whelming. I do not feel Thankful this Thanksgiving. I have to work and will not get to spend Thanksgiving with my boys. But I had to choose Thanksgiving or Christmas Eve. When I choose Thanksgiving I never imagined it would be her DUE DATE. This is the hard part of the SHOULD HAVE BEENS.
Samantha I am so sorry that you are dealing with so much extra emotion this week. Those moments where we are so harshly reminded of what we are missing are the worst. I hope that you are able to find a little spare time for yourself this week so that you can reflect on your sweet girl and all the things you have done to keep her memory alive. Sending you a million hugs.
Jami
a big hug sent your way! Yuck for working on Thanksgiving and especially when it's a really hard date for you anyway. sorry the people in your "real world" aren't getting it...I liked Jami's idea she had commented to one of my post that we need to write a manual to give to everyone to read. the should have beens are always the worst...
So sorry you are feeling down and that horrible part of missing what should have been….
I will be thinking of you these days…
Many hugs
L.
There will never be a year that passes where they boys' due date doesn't seem wrong somehow. I'm sorry you were hit doubly, no, triply hard with missing her, Thanksgiving, and having to work. Hugs.
Shannon