7 years ago today I walks into my OB's office excitingly waiting for an ultrasound. I remember sitting in the waiting room with my friend discussing weather or not it was a boy or a girl. Jadon was going to be a big brother and I was secretly hoping for a girl. As the ultra sound started I knew something wasn't right. There wasn't as much black areas (fluid) as Jadon's ultrasounds. They started all the normal measurements when the tech asked me "how far along are you?". I told her I was twenty weeks and the look on her face said it all. My baby was only measuring 17 weeks. Immediately I was like there's no way. I know when I conceived her march 6th 2006. Baby was to small and had legs crossed. We were then taken to the Dr office where we were told the news. Something was wrong with our child. More blood work, another ultrasound in two weeks, but that things didn't look good and we would most likely ml need a miracle for our child to survive. If there is one thing I've learned, when drs tell you that you need a miracle, its never a good thing. For the next five week were a roller-coaster. Many appointment, bed rest, specialist, all eventually would lead to pre-e setting in, organs starting to shut down, a late night EVAC ride to a bigger hospital, and our sweet baby girl arriving 15 weeks early measuring 19weeks instead of 25weeks. I can't believe its been 7years since I've felt everything begins to unravel... thankful with the support from SHARE, my friends, family, Jadon and now Jaxson, I have come a long way. I'm living again. I'm enjoying the small things again. My boys remind me of how beautiful things can be. My daughter remind me to take nothing for granted, and that when my life here on earth is over that I have someone beautiful waiting on me. Until we meet again sweet girl I love you! Please keep an eye on your brothers. They are a little wild and could use an extra set of eyes watching over them.
Samantha *** update*** Oh all days guess what arrived today. After almost two years of waiting Trinity's molly bear arrived shortly after my first post! Think Trinity's letting me know she is okay!
Won't let me post pic will post pic in my Gallery!
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Awww....what a sweet surprise!! Hugs to you as you remember those days.
So glad you got the bear on such a painful day. I'm sure Trinity is looking down and telling you she is ok and trying to make you smile.
Laura
Thanks Ladies!!!
Thinking of you today. I definitely think Trinity was sending you a sign with her Molly bear arriving just when you needed it.
Hugs,
Marissa
What a wonderful thing to receive on such a hard day! Trinity's bear is beautiful, just like her mom. Sending you lots of hugs as your "storm" begins. I am grateful when mine comes at the ability to recall even the smallest of details but also saddened at the same time. It is always so weird to relive a specific event as if it is happening all over again.
Jami
Jami- there isnt a whole lot I remember, some of the emotions I remember, and a few details, but after 7 years the blur from those days are what I remember most. I have not idea how I made it through those weeks, her birth and the last 7 years... still unbelievable!
Samantha