Share Your Story

I have been asked multiple times in the last two weeks how we choose Trinity's name.  Its funny because I have never really been asked that.  But it seems like the question is coming up a lot, so I though I would share a story.

Growing up my aunt had a friend in kindergarten named Trinity and my mother fell in love with the name when she was a teenager.  Trinity Erin was the name she had grown up knowing she would name her daughter.  If a boy came along Lucas Gray would be his name.  So years later Lucas Gray arrived and a little over a year later my mom gave birth to a very sick little girl premature.  At first my mom worried more about my health.  Every time my mom went to the NICU the nurse would say "have you named that baby yet"  and my mom would say no.  Finally one day my mom went to the NICU and the nurse asked the same question and my mom said no and she said well we named her "Sammy Jo".  That is how I was known in the NICU.  Finally my mom said Samantha, Sammy for short, and she picked Leigh because it was her sisters middle name.  

As I grew up I loved the story about how the NICU nurses named me and saved my life.  She told me about the name Trinity and I too fell in love with it.  Of course like most little girls I have a whole list of names.   Hailey, Faith, Hope ect.  When we learned I was pregnant again, I told my mom if its a girl I am going to name her Trinity.  My mom tried to talk me out of it.  Then we learned I was in fact having a girl, however, she most likely wasn't going to make it.  My mom looked at me and said that Trinity was the perfect name for our sweet girl.  We choose the name Leigh after my husband and I.  He is Lee and I am Leigh.  To me it was the perfect name to this sweet angel that quickly came into our live and left far to soon.  A name that was thought of by her grandmother and would have been her mothers name.  It almost feels like she will forever be entwined with the past, present, and future.   

I still love hearing my mom tell me the story about how I got my name leaving room for me to name my daughter Trinity.

Maybe its because the holidays are approaching faster than I'm ready for but I miss her and think of her daily.   I hate to think of all the moments I'm missing out on with her.  This year I am trying to find the positive and joy in things and not let the sadness take over.  We have things planned to honor her this season. We are donating a toy in her memory to a little girl in need, something I think she would have liked.  Going to her monument to deliver flowers, and even added a butterfly to our family's Christmas card.  

I hope you all are being gentle with yourselves as the holidays approach.   Hugs and love to you all!