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Samarella's Journal

update

So its been a while since I have been on here! I have enrolled Jadon in kindergaten! Im soooo dreading it! I have been slowly buying thing and trying to prepare him for school! still a little worried about him and his ADHD! But I know that its time for me to let him go a little! RIGHT?!?! Anyways I just cant believe that one month from tomorrow my little guy will be 5 year old! Looking at him now you would never know that he was both 5 1/2 weeks early! He is my rock! Its been almost 3 years since my daughter grew her wings and Jadon is the reason I feel I have made it through this all! There were days I didnt want to get out of bed!! Days were I told myself if I didnt wake up I wouldnt care the pain was just two deep! But I knew I had to! JAdon needed a mommy and I was his mommy two. I finally came to realize that Trinity was safe now! I didnt have to worry she was in Gods hand! Jadon is the one that I need to stay focus for! I cant lose myself because he needed me ! I find strength in him! He looks up to me! I tried soo hard not to be sad in front of him, even when I have day where I miss my daughter so much I cant stand it, I try to find myself a place away from him and grieve. The world is soo unfair and hes just to young to understand Life and death and one day he'll ask and Ill tell him but in his own time! I want to teach him that life is full of things good bad, things we may feel are unfair! God may give us obsticals in our path but with each obstical we learn and over come and it makes us a stronger person! I want him to know that NOT EVERYTHING MAKES SINCE but things happen! Life Happens!

  • Congrats on enrolling Jadon in kindergarten.  That's such a big step for him and you!  I am so glad that it sounds like you have found a measure of peace around Trinity.  She is absolutely in good hands and very proud of her mommy for smiling.

    Lauren

  • Hey congratulations on enrooling Jadon into kinnygarren (that's how my baby pronounced it).  That was a huge step.  

    Take good care,

    Yolonda

  • Good luck on Jadon's first day of school. Make sure you bring lots of tissues!!!

    Katie

  • It's so hard to let them go when it's time to start kindergarten!!  I know there are always concerns when there are extra things to think about for your child, but I'm sure his teacher will be more than helpful with his learning including his ADHD.

    Tracy

  • My son is 5 yrs old and has ADHD too. A good teacher makes all the difference! I will say a prayer that your sons teacher is patient and understanding of ADHD symptoms. You have done awesome with the weight loss.

    Best Wishes,

    Kristina