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What a day

So today while at work I got a phone call from my hubby!! Im not gonna go into exact details but what he told me turned my whole world upside down. in the past few month maybe even longer he has made some very poor decisions and has to face them now, hes sick, dont know how bad but I know its more than he can handle on his own. He has developed a little bit of an addiction. On monday we wil be seeking help from a professional and he want this too! However it has turned my relationship with my mother up side down for the fact shes know and didnt tell me. And we were living with her so its hard now because we have moved out and to his parents when we can get him the right support system and help he may need! I just feel as though I have to support him, I got married for "sickness and health" and I have to be there for him! I have to give my all so that if in the end things dont work out at least I can say I tried! I have to do this for my son and for my angel! I love him with all my heart he is my life! I want him to know that I understand everyone make bad choices and I know that some choices can get out of control. See My brother has a BAD addiction right now in and out of rehab and my family is trying everything they can... our town has a very high rate of ppl on these things! My brother has lost everything his child, his life, has no home, no money , he has NOTHING! my hub sees that and well he doesnt want that he want help now! Isnt it funny that when you think you are getting things together how everything has a magical way of falling apart! i Know we are strong we made it through so much so far and I know we can do this... our love is strong enough... please say a pray for him and call upon all your angels upstairs cause this is going to be a very hard week for us all! I know my angel will watch over him! I love him! I really dont want to discuss it in DC that will be my time away from the craziness however im gonna need all the support I can get! I love him and want him to get better!

  • Hi I would like to say how I know to a degree what you are going through with the addiction issue.  I am a recovering alcoholic and have been sober three years.  And it took roughly six months prior to that to get me to seriously take the effort/s to stop drinking.  I was admitted over 6 times to mental hospitals trying to figure out why I was so anxious and depressed all the time, which I drank to cover them.  Once I discovered why I had an addiction and the ammuntion of why and how it made it easier to stop drinking and for me to actually follow through with the detox process.  I am also addicted to narcotics, I am working on getting off of them.  So in the course of the roughly four years, I found out I have borderline personality disorder, severe anxiety, non-spec. depression, ocd, ptsd.  Alot of things I know but I had also just found out that, I was at a high risk do to the fact I have an addictive personality.  So thus starts the other chapter in my life that I must close.  If you ever need to chat or want to email me, email me at brittany_d_o_neill@yahoo.com

    Sincerely,

    Brittany

  • Wow, I'm sorry that you are going through this but totally respect you for sticking by your hubby's side and helping him cope.  I'm not sure a lot of people would do that.  In the end, I hope that he is able to kick his issues and you two can move on together.  

    Hugs,

    Jackie

  • Ooooh yes, life has a way of throwing curveballs when you least expect or need it.  I'm thankful to hear that hubby is motivated and willing to work towards a healthier life.  It will certainly be a difficult journey but my hope is together you will pull through.

    Lauren

  • I am so sorry to read this....your husband is very lucky to have you.  Hang in there, it sounds like your helping move him in the right direction!

    Kate

  • Im so sorry..yes life is so hard,theres always something...your husband is lucky to have you and i wish you and your family all the best...hugs..my thoughts are with you..chantelle..