I am so sorry to hear of Nathaniel's passing; however, I'm glad that you found Share. Here you will find that you are not alone and we all understand how you feel and can relate to the pain of losing a child, or, in my case, children. My boys, born at 23 weeks, became angels in April and, naturally, it is still extremely hard for me to cope with the fact that they are not here. At this point, I should be preparing for their births any day now.
However, I pray that in the upcoming days, nights, weeks, months and years, you and your family find the strength to press on. Allow yourself to grieve as you need to and take things day by day or second by second.