Thank you all for your sharing. I am so sorry for all your losses and pray that God will heal and comfort all of us. I am glad to find a community that it is OK not to be ok, and people understand what I am going through.
We just confirmed today that my pregnancy did not go well at 8 weeks. There was no embro and the sacs stopped growing. We first knew there might be issue at 6 weeks. Had two weeks to go through a lot of emotions and prepare for the worst.
I am grateful that we already have three wonderful boys. As a family, we were so excited about the new baby. We picked the name, guessed the sex, talked about becoming a bigger family. I never expected things may not go well as I was blessed with three good pregnancies.
I have many close friends praying for me. I know Jesus loves me and my babies. Though god's plan is different than what we thought, I trust His plan is best.
I still grieve. Though doctor assured me there was nothing due to what I did. I kept wondering whether it was caused by a few issues I did not pay attention to before finding out the pregnancy.
I am still waiting for the miscarriage to happen naturally. Thanks for your sharing, I will take time to grieve and mourn. They would have been twins. Whether they developed or not, they will always be my babies. I am not sure whether they develop enough that I could see them in heaven in the future. But I will always hold them in my heart.