Hello and welcome to Share. I am so very sorry to read about the loss of your baby boy Anderson. It's so amazing that you were able to have him with you until discharge. I bet you memorized every detail about him during that time. I know how empty and sudden it all was. I had to respond to you when I read your post. I also lost a baby boy at 30 weeks gestation. I had undiagnosed preeclampsia and a bunch of other things went wrong very fast. Before I knew it, I was rushing myself to the hospital near midnight and when I got there, no heartbeat. I had an emergency C-section and it just all happened so fast. When I came to, my husband was there and we were making plans that no new parent should ever have to make. It was unreal and looking back, I still shake my head. I know what you mean. If I could take a picture of happiness, it was right up to that point. I am thinking of you and your angel.
Sending hugs and strength,