Hello Ambur, I’m so sorry you are going through this. Miscarriages are so hard to deal with and I understand that it is hard to move past it..... One thing I learned with my miscarriages is that everything happens for a reason. I know it’s hard to understand right now but at some point, one day, you will, in your mind, acknowledge that yes, it had to happened.
I am not aware of the circumstances but like you said, you do have a healthy 4 year old that needs you. Be strong mommy! Be strong for your little one and be strong for yourself!