20 week stillborn loss.

Hi, I am going through a tuff time at the minute

My boyfriend is in prison and yesterday I had to give birth to a 20 week old little boy whos heart beat wasn't found.

I couldn't have my partner There as his in prison so 8 went through this alone and it was awful.

Comings home was even worse, now I have a baby nursery, midwife appointments , and baby things to pack up.  

The baby furniture gets me crying everytime I walk past the room.

This was supposed to be my little mircal and I couldn't even do that right.

I feel like I have failed as a mum, I want my baby back from heaven.

Anyone with any advice would be great.

I don't have any friends to vent to.