Hi Sarah, I gave birth on September 8th and my son was still born as well. I went to a scheduled midwife appointment on the 7th only to be told there was no longer a heartbeat, I was 38 weeks and 6 days.
Right now we have no answers as to what happened.
I feel your pain. It’s a pain like no other. I find that my body physically aches to hold him. I don’t know what comfort I can offer but I can tell you that you are not alone. For the past few days I’ve been journaling, writing to him and I find comfort in that. Grief like this I don’t think will ever go away, it comes in waves but it will hopefully become less intense over time.
If at anytime you need someone to speak to I am here.