I lose my first baby

I lost my baby that was my only baby I was making plans for my baby and now she is gone I was just waiting for my baby to born a life and only to see she born not breathing it hurt so bad I feel like I losing my mind, I feel like I want to die, I want to give up, nothing don't interest me any more some time I feel I could of done more but it was my first I didn't have a lot of experience I just have this mix emotions in my head I need help to get over this hurt and pain