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Akeelah's Mommy

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  • Hafy

    In reply to hettybuggy:

    So sorry momma May the Almighty God give you strength through out..Ur loved
  • Moeshadavis

    In reply to ALGarrity:

    That's really hard I lose my baby too Monday gone and I feel so hurt in side
  • Salamanca15

    In reply to Renee1:

    I am sorry for your loss God has gained beautiful angel where there is no pain no suffering
  • Salamanca15

    In reply to AngelSt:

    I am sorry for your loss Momma their is nothing harder that watching your baby hurt on a hospital bed. Then being so tinny and failing multiple Iv’s blowing their veins. Theirs nothing harder than that I share your pain but we will over come as hard as it is they will make us stronger. Stay strong
  • aliganyira lydia

    In reply to AngelSt:

    Ooh nooo..God heal u faster.May his soul R.I.P.I will help you in prayer
  • ALGarrity

    In reply to Renee1:

    Hello, I know you wrote this last year but I just read your story because I had a very similar situation happen to me - time of year and everything. My water ruptured prematurely at exactly 23 weeks pregnant in early March of this year. We had just finished our registry and just began decorating the nursery in preparation of our little girl. I was on bed rest for 4 days before I had an infection and they had to take her our by c-section. She was in the NICU for three days before we held her as she left this world. The three days in the NICU were the worst days on my life. And I know exactly what you mean when you say that when you held her it was simultaneously the best and worst moment of your life. I re-live that hour of my life over and over again and cry for the loss of my baby but also love to think about when I got to hold her. It is a feeling and a memory that I cannot explain. I miss her so much, I miss feeling her inside my belly moving around. And I am so angry that I wasn't able to keep her inside of me a little longer. I am so scared to get pregnant again because I don't think I could handle it if this happened again. But at the same time, I wish I could be pregnant again tomorrow. I wish more than anything that I could have brought my little girl home, and still cannot believe that I won't.
  • AngelSt
    Hi everyone, I read many of your stories and i must say, i am very sorry for all your loss. Almost two months ago, i lost my son at eight months old. Actually, the next day he was about to have full eight months. And he didn't made it. It still hard for me to face the truth, that he is gone, that i will never ever hug or kiss him or sing him or tell a story.. Or to be happy as i was. I am falling apart inside. When people see me they say you are strong/brave but the truth is, i am just pretending in front of everyone, especially my parents because i know that they are hurt not just because their nephew's gone but for me and my husband as well..I don't want people to think about us ..look , poor them..
    My son died in two days. We went on a vacation and the same day we landed there his temperature went up, we finished in hospital, and the next day he was gone. Things went complicated and his little heard couldn't take the pressure..The hardest thing i ever had to do was seeing him hurt on that hospital bed..I was praying while the doctors tried to reanimated him but deep in my heard i felt that that was the last time seeing my child alive. Hardest words a parent could hear : We are sorry, your son didn't made it..And now, every day is harder as it passes.Every day, everything comes back to me.. I see people around me, i wonder how this could happens to us, why our child but i know there's no answer to that question..
    I learned that the most precious thing in a life is to have a child so i would love to have another baby as soon as possible, but the reality is that i am scared. I am scared that that second baby could die as my first one, i am scared to even try to stay pregnant, i feel like i will betray my son, like it is too early to think for another. And in a same time i know that i never will be ready to pass on this, i know that till that day, my heart will cry for my precious little one.
  • Karri

    In reply to hettybuggy:

    Hi and welcome to Share! I'm sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how hard that has been for you.
    It's good to hear how well Nathan is doing despite his early start. Welcome little man!
    Thank you for sharing your story with us. I hope you're able to keep us updated on how you and Nathan are doing.

    Take care,
    Karri
  • TrinitysMommy

    In reply to hettybuggy:

    Welcome to Share!
  • hettybuggy

    In reply to hettybuggy:

    Hello everyone am henrietta am 38 years old I had my son Nathan @ 32 weeks,I had an emergency cs cos I had a very high blood pressure was on bed rest at d hospital for 4 days when I noticed the baby was not moveing did a scan and was told the baby was in distress had to bring him out,i cried my eyes out cos I had a still birth in 2016 due to the same HBP,had the CS baby came respiratory disorder,PDA,jaundice,sepcis,baby on oxygen,baby fought so hard to live and he his today healthy but he is having some development delays,he sits with support not crawling yet and not bearing weights on his legs buts he rolls over very cheerful, good appetite I get worried sometimes but I know eventually he will be fine.
  • hettybuggy

    In reply to BabyJeremiahMommie:

    Hi so happy for u,i had my son at 32weeks in august 2017 and he his veng some delays in his motor skills am really worried
  • Renee1
    Mom of 23w6d baby Abagail, went to Heaven at 13 days old
    My husband and I have dealt with infertility for over 10 years. Every year hoping and planning to start our family. Finally after years of hardships, husbands cancer 3x, family deaths and caregiving, financial difficulties, other health issues, etc. We were able to do IVF, traveling to a different city, and got pregnant first FET. Going to appointments out of town, many medications, morning sickness, all filled our days, but the perfect baby girl and pregnancy made it the happiest and most hopeful time of our lives!
    The new year came and a few weeks into second trimester, I finally started feeling better and having more energy and showing off my new baby bump. I was enjoying my pregnancy and looking forward to having my baby. I was planning my baby registry and baby shower and setting up the nursery. I had my baby's anatomy scan and met with my Dr to go over the results, everything was perfect! We were beyond excited and felt we had jumped the big hurdle and sigh of relief everything was perfect for baby and me.
    A week later I met up with my mom to help label and send out our baby shower invitations. Shortly after we had finished, I was rushed by ambulance to Labor and Delivery. I had no symptoms that i had recognized, but i felt a balloon feeling coming out. Once at Labor and Delivery light contractions started, and they did everything they could to stop preterm labor.
    The next day on March 13th 2018, at 23 weeks 6 days pregnant, I gave birth to my baby girl Abagail by classical C-section. She was helped and stayed in the NICU as she was so young and immature. The hardest part was not being able to hold her and kiss her. She had many ups and downs and long days for us all. The last day with her, as her body was failing and there was nothing left to do to help her, my husband and I were finally able to hold her and love on her. It was the best day of my life, but paired with the worst day of my life. She lived for 13 days before passing and joining Heaven March 26th 2018.
    I miss her so much and hate that i can't bring her home and watch her grow up. I had so many dreams of us as a family. I am glad she is in Heaven, no more pain or suffering and worshipping before God with my brother Tracy and Grandpa Jim and other family members and all the saints. I just wish Heaven wasn't so far away...
  • BabyJeremiahMommie
    My name is Adrianne, my son was born at 27 weeks and 0 days on September 13th, 2017 weighing only 2 lbs 4 ozs and was 13 inches long. I suddenly developed preeclampsia and had to be hospitalized and day 2 into my hospital stay they had to take my son by C-section because of slow movement. I cried the moment they told me that they had to take him. I knew it was too early for him to be born, my son was born exactly 90 days before his due date. He was in the NICU for 59 days and that was the longest 8 weeks of my life. My son was lucky enough not to need oxygen or IV fluids after 4 days, but he still had and still has a battle to keep fighting. I pray everyday for his health and my strength, because without the support of family and friends i don't know how we made it. I am happy to report that Jeremiah is now 7 lbs and 18 inches long.
  • TrinitysMommy

    In reply to lilbird930:

    Welcome to Share. I believe you found you blog and I commented on if already. SHARE is a great place to fine people who get it. Many of us have walked similar paths. I hope you find as much love Comfort and support as I have found here. Please know you are not alone on this journey!

    Much Love
    Samantha
  • Josie12907

    In reply to lilbird930:

    Hello and Welcome to Share,
    I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby girl. I too lost my baby girl almost 10 years ago and think of her everyday. Congratulations on your new baby, although I'm sorry you find yourself embarking on the journey of the NICU. There are many parents here who understand and we are here for you. Many of us use the blog feature as an online journal, to keep track of our feelings and events with our little ones. I hope reading and writing here brings you comfort. Wishing you strength and peace.
    Love and Hugs
    Brandi
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