In reply to NewMomma1225:
I know exactly how you feel, I gave birth to my baby boy at 27weeks this Valentine's day due to severepreeclampsia and HELLP syndrome. I blamed me so hard and cried my eyes out for days, but taking some meds and talking to a specialist helped a lot. Also just talking to my husband, getting reassurance that it was not my fault, helped a lot.
If u ever need to talk to someone, pls just msg me!
Hope you and baby feels great!