New to NICu

I just had my son on 6/23 at 35 weeks. He is still in NICU learning to breath properly and feed. I want to be there with him but have such anxiety and stress being in the room and all I do is watch the monitors. He had to go on cpap when born and was taken off and put back on. He now is on canulla and doctors tell us he is improving but it hard to see. I just want him home. I feel like this stress is not helpful for when I’m dealing with blood pressure issues which caused me to deliver early!!