Stillbirth and hope

I know when you first see this title is a HUGE contradiction. I had my son King Joisah Sims and he was delivered by way of stillbirth at 36 weeks and 2 days. I had just gone on maternity leave the day prior. It was one of the worst days of my life after the loss, I begin seeking God out, sometimes questioning my faith as if I didn't pray hard enough but God let me know that he never left my side and that my son was in paradise. I am sure I will see him again and that I will finally see his beautiful big brown eyes as I imagine they would be. I have decided to press through my pain and pursue purpose of sharing my story only to find out there are so many mothers going through the same thing. I never thought that over 24,000 parents in the USA alone per year would lose a child or multiple children each year to stillbirth. I begin to pray again, read the bible and inspirational books, devotionals and just spent time to heal. I was able to have another child in 2016 and he looks just like my son King. Throughout my journey over the past three years gave me so much inspiration and material I was able to put everything together and wrote a book. God is so good because he sought fit to birth a book through little me. He said it was time to show others healing can take place after loss and I stepped out in faith and did just that.

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  • Thank you for this. God bless.
  • In reply to Kristinaj:

    I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your twin babies. It is okay to be mad, it is okay to cry, it is okay to scream, it is okay to feel lost because you have just lost two babies. I was upset I was mad I was confused I was lost. And you are going to have your moments and anyone that tells you that is not okay disassociate yourself from them. I felt like I lost all hope and my faith because I grew up in the church I thought I did everything that I could. But what I realize is that no one is exempt from pain and no one is exempt from death. I begin to pray again and cry and read my word and journal a lot. It helped me through my journey and still does to this day. My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers. Healing and peace
  • I just lost my twin boys 7/25/17. I went into preterm labor at 22 weeks and 1 day and delivered at 22 weeks 2 days. The hospital said there was nothing they could do to try and stop my labor. I was already dilated to a 3. I wish I would have went in earlier but I was just having a little pressure. I thought it was a normal feeing for twins. I know I just lost them but my heart hurts so bad and I don't know how I will ever be happy again. I wish I could kee my faith in God but right now I'm so mad. I wish I had your faith but right now I feel so hopeless.