I'm so sorry for your loss. God Bless your baby Jesse. I lost my daughter at 20 weeks three years ago. Please read my post to Perpetulle from a few mins ago. I hope there's something helpful in it for you. What helped me was reading a lot of books on losing a child, this magazine https://stillstandingmag.com/
for mothers who have lost babies, talking to a counselor, the support of my family , friends, and truly believing I will one day be reunited with my daughter.
I also honor my baby on her birthday every year and this brings me a lot of healing, as well. We planted trees in our neighborhood for her one year, another year we gave to a charity for sick babies, etc. There's a lot you can do to honor her. I also wear a necklace with her ashes in it and that brings me comfort. Whatever brings you comfort!
You are stronger than you think and you can do this. Be gentle with yourself.
Hugs and Love to you!