My son lived for only 22 hours. I was in labor for almost 24 hours. I had a healthy pregnancy and he was such a beautiful boy. He was my only child and now I’m a childless mother.
I watched them try to resuscitate him for over an hour. I prayed and called out his name.
When he heard my voice he opened his eyes but never cried.
He died from severe brain asphyxia. He was stuck in the birth canal for too long.
I blame myself because I couldn’t push hard enough. I blame myself because I could have gone to another hospital. Maybe they would have done an emergency c-section. They just watched me struggle and let my baby die.
He was in NICU from the birth until death.
I will never forget the few hours I spent with him. And I ll never forgive myself for failing to protect my only baby.