Hi Neville Jr.'s Mommy. Welcome to Share. I am so sorry for your loss of your baby boy.
I am also a loss mom. Six years ago my daughter was born at 26 weeks and passed away at 3 days old. I also struggled, and sometimes still do, thinking about the way things should be. I wish no parent ever had to face the loss of a child.
I found Share to be a wonderful place to find support and know that I was not alone. I know you will find a lot of support here too.
Keeping you in my thoughts and sending many hugs.