Ectopic Pregnancy/Near Death/Scared to try scared to never get pregnant again

Has anyone here suffered from an ectopic pregnancy that required emergency surgery? I'll even top that by saying an ectopic surgery in a foreign country where the surgeon didn't speak English? This was my experience.

I'm going on 3 losses now and I am very scared I will never be a mother. I am grieving today more than other days, it comes in waves. My sister has two kids that are perfect and has never been through a loss. I ask, why me? I lost my left fallopian tube during the surgery. Now I feel discouraged to even try. 

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